Sometimes I feel like a motherless child...

Today was pretty okay. I got screamed at this morning, but it got fixded. The morning was really boring. Cept for the spoon. That was fun, decorating it. But I wanted to eat it. So I ate the part that didn't have pen on it till Sam made me give it a funeral 'cause it was dead.

I didn't really care for chem today. The movie about fireworks was pretty good. But it wasn't the best. Or entertaining. Math was okay. I'm up to 100 digits of pi memorized.

3.1415926535897932384626433832795028841971693993751018209749445923078164062862
0899862803482534211706798214808.

Thats 107 I think. Then I went to civis and didn't do anything. I took notes, but thats it. Then at lunch I got my ticket for sno daze from Chelsea. Then Sam and Gavin and I talked during lunch. Thats pretty much all that happened then. But after lunch Sam and I spent sixth hour talking and walking around. Which was actually fun. Cept I got cut on my finger, and it was surprisingly deep. It bled a lot more than a normal cut would. Weird. Oh well. I was supposed to go to group, but I didn't. I signed in though, so I'm excused from class.

They got worried cause I never came back from the bathroom, so a friend went on a search for me. It was kinda funny. I think I actually did okay on the drivers ed test. I hope I did okay.

I gave Ana my bag of overnight stuff too. So I'm all set. Then I hung out with Maya, Gavin, Josh, Chippy, Ryan, Mike, Kyle, Miles and yeahhhh. It was entertaining then too.

Then I got 2 discs of CSI! And met one of my sister's friends' Sam. Who I like cause she owns every season of the most amazing shows. And we all sang Buffy songs, Sam, Me, Belle, Mum, Cathy, Jarad, Kyle, everyone.
And the baby is here!!!:DDDDDDDDD
I'm sorta excited bout the dance tomorrow, but I'm really nervous. I hope Claire knows that I'ma cling to her. And Morgana is coming over tomorrow before the dance, and she's bringing the stripper!!!!!!!!! :D the bunny one. Hah.

Lalala... Today was pretty good.

I hate myself, for losing you...

I lied. But I can't tell her that.

I died. But she doesn't know it yet.

I cried. But she can't see the tears.

I sighed. Then she noticed.





Confusing part about that, is every one of those is about a different 'she'. Weird, huh?
I'm sorta looking forward to Sno Daze. I'm sorta looking forward to the overnight. I'm sorta looking forward to Anna's. I'm sorta looking forward to TEC. I'm sorta looking forward to tomorrow.

So why is it that the only things I'm really looking forward to are a hug tomorrow, and minicon?

I don't know how to say I love you...

I'm worried. But I can't call. I don't know why but I can't. I should call. I don't wanna wait. Waiting is bad, it hurts. But if I don't wait then I risk losing a friend. So I have to not wait, in one aspect, yet wait, in another. I don't know what to do.

I don't quite know, how to say, what I feel...

I did nothing today.

Sat in bed.

Didn't go to church.

Watched Lord of the Rings 3.

Watched Buffy.

Read The Subtle Knife.

Talked to Claire.

Talked to Sam. Chantal's Sam.

Talked to Gavin.

Watched tv.

Took a shower.

Threw my backpack at the wall.

Slept. A lot. 6 hours more than usual.

Stared at the wall.

Sat in the dark for an hour.

I've done nothing.

If our actions, and what we do, describe ourselves, than I'm really fucked.

Truth be told, I miss you...

We got up at 6 to go snowboarding. We drove 4 hours to duluth. We were almost there, and we got a leak in the Coolant. So we turned around. We drove 4 hours home.

I want to go to the d4i gig. I don't know where it is. I don't know when it is. I don't think I can get a ride.

I want a donut. I want to make sure Sam's okay.

I need a cookie.

I'll be the rain on your fire escape...

Sam and Gavin got back together.

No one knows me underneath these clothes...

My voice came back.

I spent all of my day helping Sam. She was really upset. I spent every passing time with her, and I had a group fifth hour, so I signed into that so I would be excused from class and she went to class and signed in. But we spent the entire hour standing in the hall talking. Then lunch was more of the same, only even more intense with more crying 'cause she could see Gavin.

We skipped the pep fest with Claire and Sam F. (Chelsea's ex) and she wanted to talk to Gavin. Finally he agreed. I helped her with that too. And she cried some more. I felt so bad.

I hung out with Gavin a bit after school, and Maya. It was fun.

I wanna go bash my fucking head in the wall. I did a bit at school, but Maya and Gavin kept stopping me. I got home and realized there are a lot of walls here, unprotected by the two of them.

I got depressed watching Gilmore Girls. Who the fuck gets depressed watching that?!?!?!?!?!
Besides me...

God. Gah!
The one person that I usually go to for advice, is currently not talking to me. So I can't ask her.
I just did three long chores to distract me. I never do chores unless I have to. I took a ten minute walk outside while it was snowing, without a coat. I got numb.

Okay, just bashed my head in the wall a bit more. Till my sis yelled at me to stop making so much noise.

Hope all your days are much better than mine.
I am NOT looking forward to tomorrow.

The future is now...

I still couldn't talk today. Blehhhhhh!!!!! I hate not being able to talk. And I'm all sorts of confused... Sam and Gavin broke up today, and I'm with both of them. I mean like, Im happy that they aren't together. Mostly cause I know that Sam wanted to do it.. and yeah. But then I feel bad for Gavin cause he's my friend too.

Plusssss, I'm not sure if I like Gavin's way of coping... but I actually do like it. Or rather, I like the idea of it. So yeahhhh. But I'd like to try his way of dealing. :D

Hehehehehe. I like this show. I'm watching Arrested Developent. THANK YOU ELLA.

Man I like showerrrrrs. They make me feel all warm. Mostly, cause I use hot water.

So, I have a dilema. I like someone. I wanna date someone. A specific one. But I don't know if I can. First of all, I'd have to have the courage to ask them out... and you know, know if that someone likes me. Which I doubt, seing as no one I like ever likes me.

Those three words, are said too much...

So I didn't have my voice today. It sucked soooo bad. I couldn't ask any questions in class, unless I wrote them on a paper and handed it to someone else to read. UGH! I hate hate hate not having my voice. And my stupid sister forgot, too. She told me to meet her in the foyer so that we could walk home together, and she'd buy me some fries from mcdonalds.

So I was waiting for her in the foyer and I was chilling with Sam and Gavin, and sh comes up and starts playing with Gavin's stomach. So I found out that way that he's friends with her from percussion ensemble. That would be the only friend that I can think of that is friends with both me and my sister. Other than Jory anyway. So I found that out, and she kept asking me why I wasn't saying anything. Being right after school, everyone was in the foyer leaving. So it was too loud for her to hear anything that I was trying to say. Sam tried telling her that I do't have my voice cause she forgot, but she didn't hear Sam either.

But the fries were good. :D And warm.

God I hate winter. I love being able to walk on grass barefoot and climb trees without freezing. I love playing with rocks, and sharpening small sticks for my miniature house project. I MISS SUMMER.

I've been texting Gavin and Claire all night, even through hiding in the dark hallway at church, then under the table. Lalala...

I have a project that I have to present tomorrow in English, only I don't know the introduction or the conclussion cause Jack did that. Plus he has the flu, so I don't know if he's coming. And I can't talk. We're supposed to talk for 7 minutes.

Oh my stomach just vibrated. I'm watching CSI NY.

I like someone. A lot.

I should do some of the make up work I have for being absent. But the tv is really calling to me.

Oh! Alex and I got caught working together on our tests in math. But he didn't really care. I'm pretty sure we tanked the test anyway.

I really like someone. Lots.

Its not enough to say that I miss you...

I was sick for a while. Not a long while. But from getting back from the cabin, to a few hours ago. I'm not sick anymore. But now I feel like complete shit.

Gotta go to sleep now. Busy, procrastinating homework.

Night.

All in all, your just another, brick in the wall...

This weekend was amazing. We went sledding, and sat in a sauna for a few hours. Cards are fun. :D And Anna's dad makes some good good good steak.

I had a pile of steak on my plate. :D

And of course, we had an all nighter watching movies. The necessary part of any sleepover. So I'm kinda hooked on Arrested Development. Expecially since Ms. Baerly is Molly Clock in Scrubs. And she's pretty awesome.

I'm having this weird urge to cut my hair. Like not just short like Morgan's hair was just cut to shoulder length. But like, uhh, boy short. Like how short Grace cut hers last year.

I don't know why. But I think it'd be fun. Oh, and I'd like to dye it a random color... Maybe red. Hmmmm...

I'm having weird thoughts like that. Cause I'm weird. Blahblahblah. God this show hurts me. Its so sad but funny...

So the coffee that I got on the way back from the Cabin just wore off. Now I'm all sorts of tired.

But I'm worried. I told Chantal who I sorta like right now. And said person happens to have the same name as the person she likes. So yeahhh. I sent her a few texts explaining the name thing. But she hasn't responded to any texts. I was all incommunicado up at the cabin cause my cell doesn't have the best service up there. And I've tried texting her since I got back, but she hasn't said anything.

Plus I'm worried about 'nother friend of mine. Wait, make that two friends of mine. Yeah. Gah. And none of them will talk to me. Two of them (Chantal and another I never get to see) I speak to mostly in text and its really easy to pretend to be okay, or just not answer. The other just won't tell me whats really going on.

Grrrrrrrrr.
G'night!

On and on, the coulds have fought for control over the skies...

I haven't updated in a few days. Oops. Anyways, I've been working on my story quite a bit, and I've gotten up to the fifth chapter done. Its hard work, even though it doesn't seem like it is. Plus I procrastinate, a lot.

I should be working on my English project right now, but I can't think of anything to write. I'll get some help over the weekend with it.

I get to go to Anna's cabin!! I'm really excited for that. 'Cause its like, all week I've been quiet. Sorta depressed. But mostly just quiet. And now that I know that I'm going, I'm bursting with energy. On monday I think I'm gonna go to Chelsea's house, and thats gonna be fun toooo. :DDD

Hanging with Ella, Maya, and Morgan after school today was pretty good. I think that I shouldn't have to go to piano. I don't like piano.

I thought that I would be able to take French instead of Band next year, I was pretty sure that I'd convinced my mother to let me drop it, but she's still thinking bout it. I really dislike band, well not the class. I dislike trumpet. Its incredibly hard to play with braces, not that I was really good without them. I'd like to do percussion, but I need a teacher for that. Ugh. My sister is gonna teach me some, then I was thinking that I'd do Band junior year 'cause I'll have more electives.

However, I'm thinking that Ima do PSEO for Junior and Senior years instead. Actually, I'd really like to go to South, or Watershed but theres no way for me to get to either school in the morning, or home after school. At least, not until Junior year when I can drive. Sooo yeah. I'm annoyed. Majorly.

I like watching tv. And I especially like having a tv in my room. I just watched Eleventh hour. It was really good, about clones. Its like CSI, only not. :D

I should go pack for Anna's. Maybe I'll do that laterrrrr... Like tomorrow morning.
I should go do my homework.. I can do that over the weekend... like mondayish. Or if Anna or Ella has any ideas.
I should go take meds for my headache. Hey, I actually went and did that one :D
Now I should sleep...

Goodnight, said the biggest procrastinator in the world, and sweet dreams to you all.

Oh, I'm sorry to anyone who was hoping for an updated version of my story.. I don't have the energy to type up the stuff right now, I need sleep. I'll write some more during school manana, but I dunno if I'll have time to type it up on friday. And I won't have a computer till sunday nightish. So yeah. Sucks for you! I have the whole story in my head. :p

There is no future.. There is no past... Thank God this moments not the last...

I've spent all afternoon watching Buffy, and working on my story. Gahhh this takes a lot of work. Plus I lost my phone. GOD I feel stupid for doing that. Oh well, I'll find it eventually, I hope. I love Buffy. AND AND AND AND AND NCIS comes on in a little bit. :DDDDD

I'm super excited for that. And my writer's block went away. Which is good.
I've made a few changes to the story, based on feedback that I got from people.

I might be able to go to Anna's cabin this weekend, which would be amazingfully awesome :D

I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate school. With a fiery passion. You have no idea how much I hate school. I want to go to Water shed, or South next year. But theres no way for me to get there and back in the mornings and after school. Not till I can drive and have a car. So I really can't. UGHHHHH!

Prolouge

Jazlyn sat by her mother's bed on Halloween. Faintly she could her the doorbell

ringing, briefly she wondered if she should go downstairs and put out a bowl of candy or turn off

the lights. Those thoughts scattered when she heard the bedsheets rustle. Slowly her mother's

eyes were opening, confusion showing on her face. Jazlyn helped her sit up, handing her a glass

of water. She sipped at the water, followed by a coughing fit.
"Whats going on Jazlyn?" She asked as soon as she got herself under control.
"I don't know Mom. . ." Sighed Jazlyn. She wished that she had some answers that she

could give her mother. "I just don't know."
"I'm dying aren't I?"
"I'm sorry. . . I should have been able to save you." Jazlyn started to softly cry. Her

mother sushed her, protesting Jazlyn's treatment of herself.
"Theres nothing you could do. Its my time to die."
"It shouldn't be. Patrick should be the one dying, not you."
* * *
Six years later, Jazlyn sat on her couch, holding a small black box. Her mother gave

her the box on the night that she died, explaining to her that it was an heirloom that had always

been passed from mother to daughter in their family. Now Jazlyn had her own daughter, a

beautiful five year old girl named Abby. Jazlyn had been told by her mother that night that no

matter what she must never open the black box. When Jazlyn had asked why all she was told was

that her grandmother had told her mother never to open the box, ever.
Over the years she had made a lot of guesses as to what lay inside the black box, and

curiousity always tried to get her to open it and see if she was right. So far she'd been able to

resist, but she still came up with all sorts of things that could be hidden inside.
She knew it must be something dangerous, otherwise, why wouldn't she be allowed to

open it? Every time that she came close to opening the box she thought of that, and that

prevented her from opening the little box. She couldn't leave her baby girl alone in the world if

something happened to her because of whatever was in the box.
Jazlyn stood and placed the black box back in its cabinet. Quietly, she walked through

the halls of her house on the way to the kitchen. This was another night where she couldn't sleep

and needed the comfort of looking at the box. Nights like these had been occuring ever since her

mother had died and she was given the box. Now, whenever she felt like she was alone in the

world all she needed to do was hold the box and remember all the times she'd had with her

mother.
She hoped that one day her own baby Abby would be able to hold the box herself and

think back to all the wonderful times she had with her mother. Though she hoped that day was

very far off in the future, Jazlyn wasn't planing on leaving her little girl with the box for many,

many years.
Once in the kitchen, Jazlyn started warming up some milk for herself. Warm milk was

what her mother had given her when she was little and couldn't sleep. Now Jazlyn prepared the

milk for Abby and herself whenever one of them couldn't sleep. Abby always knew when her

mother was awake late at night, and figured that since her mother was awake she was allowed to

be up and running around too.
Sure enough, just as the milk was getting to the right temperature Jazlyn could hear the

little sounds of her daughter's slippered feet in the hallway.
"Mommy? Why are you awake?" Abby's sleepy little voice was clearly confused. It

wasn't sunny out yet, why was her mommy up during the night?
"Mommy just needed some milk. Do you want some to help you get back to sleep,

too?" Jazlyn knew that Abby wouldn't sleep again until she'd had some warm milk and was

tucked back into bed.
"Mhm. . ." Abby sat herself down at the kitchen table, waiting patiently for her milk to

be ready. Abby was always patient, something that was very uncharacteristic for a five year old.
Pouring the milk into seperate glasses, Jazlyn looked over at her baby and saw that she

was already asleep at the table. Sighing, she set the cups down and walked over to her daughter.

Picking up Abby like she used to when she was two or three years old Jazlyn brought her back to

her room, gently setting her on her bed. After tucking Abby back into her covers, Jazlyn returned

to the kitchen to grab the cups from the counter and clean the pot.
Just in case Abby woke up again Jazlyn placed her cup of milk on the bedside table,

trusting that if Abby needed the milk she would remember to sit up so she wouldn't spill on the

bed. Taking her own glass up to her room she sat in bed, looking once again at the little black

box. If only she knew what was inside that box. . .

My faith in you was fading...

This weekend was great. It was supposed to be shopping and morgan and anna filled. But that didn't work out so it was Chantal and Sam and movie filled. Which was good. And there was some shopping, but not with friends. Belle was in a good mood though so she bought me some extra stuff. Last night I tried a mussel. Those things inside clams. It was groooooooossss.

Now I'm working on a story. So I'ma post that and I'd like some feed back :DDDD

Nobody wants to do it on their own, everyone wants to know their not alone...

I had an interview set up with the admissions lady from Conserve. This environmental school I was looking at attending. She never called so half an hour after she was supposed to, I decided to call her. When I did she told me that 'due to the current economic situation' Conserve was changing. They will be cutting almost all the classes and becoming a one semester school for Juniors. Also all they'd have in their curriculum is outdoor studies. She told me that I should look into other college prep schools. However, I'm pretty sure that most of admission deadlines have already passed. Which means I have to wait another year.

I'm so fucking pissed you have no idea.

Then it was explained to me that the reason my father was never a dad to me is cause I'm a girl. He does fine with Everett because he can understand him and knows what to do. He is learning with my sister cause she's doing therapy with him. He's not even trying with me cause I'm a girl and he doesn't know how to deal with or raise a girl. My sister is already an adult so she must be more mature than me and he can deal with that. I however do not meet these requirements because my little fetus self decided to be a girl 15 years ago. I know he has an illness.. but still..

It doesn't make sense. Nothing makes sense.

God is a DJ, Life is a dance floor, Love is a rhythm, You are the music...

I make really long posts. I apologize for that.

Earlier today my sister made some cookies. :D
She had some friends over. Pat and Louis were here. I was drinking a Cream Soda and so where they. Suddenly Pat (who is like 6 feet tall. and so stupid but funny) goes 'I wish someone would make Cream Soda into an idea. And give it to all the people in the middle east.'
So Louis follows that my 'Thats what I want for my birthday. An Abrstractifyer. So I can make Cream Soda into an idea.'

It made me laugh :p


I really love Abby from NCIS. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Heaven's not a place where you go when you die, its the moment in life when you finally feel alive...

Today NCIS was on :D

You have NO idea how happy that made me. Its my latest obsession. I'm really tempted to either save up forever and pay for cable for a while so that we can get USA and there will be 3 hours of it everday but I have no income and that'd be hard.. So I'ma try to save up to buy some on DVD.

That'll be hard though 'cause I wanna go shopping with Anna. And Morgan if she can come. So I'll spend any money I might have earned.. :D Anna should totally help me make my blog all pretty like hers. 'Cause mine is still in the realm of boringish.

I like the name though: Splashes on Rainbows. Think of that. I would like to go down to the basement right now and paint a rainbow just so's I can add some splashes onto it and then I can put that on my wall right under my Diving for Illusions and Rolling Stones posters. Oh! I need to put up my new mountain dew poster that Chels and I stole.. And I should prolly upload all those pics...
I had fun switching between my two cameras today. I like having two :D
Ahh fun rambles at midnight. I started this with talking bout painting. Which I would love to do, but its sorta midnight and someone would prolly come yell at me to go to sleep. Which I can't. Since I can't sleep I decided to do all my homework.. A first in a long time. I am so completely lost in math its not even funny. I made up answers. And I'll fail the quiz.

So I was looking at old grades today and found one from Junior High from my spanish teacher. She gave me a comment that said "excelente estudiante!' but on that same grade print out she gave me an F. It was funny to me :D

I think that since my mum's allowed me to paint my room however I want that I would like to do some really awesometastic mural on my wall. Or all four. So someone should give me some ideas of what to do. They don't have to be normal. Abstract is totally fine. I'm thinking a Tree on one wall that has a lot of branches and some fairies. :D
In addition to giving me ideas someone should also come over sometime and help me paint it. I'm thinking Anna and Chantal. 'Cause I know Chantal loves to paint and that'd be tight to see her. And Anna'd be good at that to methinks. Oh Citty and Ren should come too. And maybe Zoe and Sam. Ohhhh and Marcella ella ella ella eh eh eh! And Chelsea. And Maya and Ella too. Oh and Morgan. Maybe I should just have a room painting party.

Oh! I might actually have a birthday party this year! I dunno though cause then I'd end up having to tell people when my birthday is. And I've been almost succesfull in not doing that. I think three people remember. Last year I got a Manga drawing book from my father. That Anna and I drew all the Magical Mushrooms from. And it has a lot of naked people in it. Its soooo weird. and really stupid. I think I got a candy bar from Maren. But I think that's all I got. Besides the shirts and candles my mum got me. Oh Delia made me a cake.
FIONA! She has to come to the room painting party too.

This was supposed to have a point somewhere in it...
But that point got lost. I think it went to Canada. Though if it had any sense at all it went Ireland. Or Florida. I suppose at some moment in the middle of night (or middle of mid morning, cause its sorta the middle of the night now) I'll get a phone call from that point apologizing to me for getting lost, or running away. If I were that point I would have run away. Knowing me, as many of my points do, it probably knew that I'd butcher it somehow. Speshially if it was supposed to come to me at midnight. I hope the point is having fun partying in ireland or Florida with the other points and ideas that got lost or run away.

Wow. I don't make any sense at all. Have you noticed that?
Alright I feel like total shit right now. And I need to get some sleep. Or try to at least.
Goodnight/morning m'dears.

If I just lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Friday during the day succccccked. It was boring. But my day got better, 'cause I got Ella and Anna to come over. That was a loooooooot of fun :D Anna hid my Trible, so I couldn't bring it to Iowa. But after the two of them left I got roped into singing karaoke. I put ice down Daniel's shirt and his friend Mauricio's. Then the two of them put a Darth Vader helmet on me and started video taping me.

I got annoyed and kept trying to escape. I kinda failed at that. So after the song I took two handfulls of ice down Daniel's shirt. So he picked me up upside down. I used my monkey powers and flipped around so it was like he was giving me a piggy back. Then he brought me over to the sink and used the faucet to spray me. So I poured all the water from the water purifier on his head, plus the water that was in the mixing bowl that had flour in it :D So the two of us were completely soaked.

Then Mauricio decided to teach me to juggle with oranges, needless to say the oranges fell on the floor a lot and broke open.

Later, Daniel and my second mom's friend Jarad starting singing Bohemian Rhapsody. And groping each other. I'm not kidding, they'd grope each other's asses to make each other hit the high notes. The party broke up around midnight.

Thats when I finally went to sleep. Sorta.. Being a major insomniac I couldn't sleep. And Daniel won't let me get sleeping pills so I haven't been sleeping well at all. I had to get up early saturday morning so I could take a shower and get ready to go to Iowa with Chelsea and her family for this track meet. One of her relatives was getting an award. I was there simply to entertain Chels. Which I did.

It was amazingly fun!
On the car ride there we took bout 200 pics. And we got some of Chelsea's cousin asleep :D.

Then we had to attend this family gathering that I felt really outta place at. 'Cause everyone was walking up to our little group and saying 'OH Sara, I almost didn't recognize you! My you look different. Boyy, your daughter Chelsea really has grown since the last time I saw her! And who is this lovely girl? Oh hi Lisa. Oh Neysa? How do you spell that? So pretty. Nice to meet you.
'
I swear I had that exact conversation with 10 people there. But the lasagna there was simply amazin. We took more pictures. Then we went to the hotel, and watched a movie on tv in her aunts room, then we went back to our room and listened to music and read till it was time for the meet.


The meet itself was magical. We took bout 100 more pictures (then I accidentally wiped my SD card clean so I felt really stupid cause I lost all of my pics). Plus we saw a lot of guys in really tight pants, and girls in bikini like things.


Also, we stole these Mountain Dew posters :D and we found a little alcove to hide out in. I got stuck in a vending machine. 'Cause I'm just that talented. We got energy drinks and candy. Then we sat there feeding each other. It was weird, then we went back in to watch more of the meet. I wish i'd been able to run. Grr. Oh well.


We went to the bar next. That was soo much fun. The waitresses looked like strippers., and it was all trippy in there. We took a ton of pics of the waitresses and the lights. Plus a few of her dad and relatives, then we got a ride back to the hotel.


At the hotel we changed to go to the pool for a while
. But the pool was still full of little kids (grrrr)
so we went back to our room and had a dance party in our swimsuits,
and jumped on the beds :D
Then watched some law and order svu, then played the never ending questions game.

We did that while going back to the pool which STILL had little kids (it was 10 shouldnt'they have been sleeping?)
We got mad so we went to the excersize room for a while,
and were doing questions still.
Then we gave up and went swimming anyway.

Then her parents showed up. four hours early. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

So we ran away. Back to the room. And we got candy and watched the House Bunny. And laughed our asses off. Then we asked more questions, watched more svu.

Then slept.


We had a pillow fight with her dad the next day. It was funnnny. Then we watch
ed Juno. We ate donughts :D
And then we left.

In the car we took morrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrre pictures
I have 576 to upload.. :D
And we had arby's
And read 17 Photography magazines.

And bugged her cousin Blair.

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD



It was magical.

Now I'm watching Gilmore Girls, and texting Zoe. Only she's at a superbowl party, so she's not responding much. Though its more than she usually talks to me. Which kinda makes me sad. But I know that she's got a lot going on and probably doesn't have a lot of time to talk to people, and even if she did I doubt that I'd be one of the first people she'd want to talk to.

I wish that I'd been running in the meet. But I wasn't. Oh wellllll..

I'm not looking forward to having to get up and be active at school tomorrow. Really not looking forward to it.